[ The first thing that hits Jim from Spock's mind is a whole mess of complicated and tangled emotions. The feardreadanxiety of his worries warring with the trustbrightaffection he feels for Jim slams into Jim's mind with an unexpected ferocity; it takes a few seconds for Spock to dial it back, exert a level of control over it that won't overwhelm Jim. That meditation really would have helped in this case, deflection from the subject or no, and Spock regrets not pushing that aspect of it for a brief thought before it too is controlled and sorted away.
He focuses on the brighter emotions of Jim, flashes of memories from the night before surfacing more easily now. The mind meld makes it as though Jim were the one experiencing the memories, looking at himself through Spock's mind—and he feels fit to burst, buried so deeply inside of Jim with him squirming and moaning in his arms, it's all he can do not to come right then and there when Jim's voice hits that certain pitch that sends shivers down his spinebefore the memory floats away, Spock directing his thoughts more easily now. He brings forth only certain aspects of those memories, the word ashayam into the forefront. He was telling the truth that is had no direct translation in Standard – like most Vulcan words, the meaning and depth of his native language loses its preciseness and luster when converted.
But here like this in the meld, Jim will feel how the word tugs at Spock's heart, his very katra/soul/self responding to it. There's a depth behind it that even the link they shared the night before couldn't convey in the heat of the moment, more profound than anything he's felt to this point in his life. The cord responds to it, reaching out to Jim and connecting, the meaning of it shooting across like electricity along a wire. ]
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He focuses on the brighter emotions of Jim, flashes of memories from the night before surfacing more easily now. The mind meld makes it as though Jim were the one experiencing the memories, looking at himself through Spock's mind—and he feels fit to burst, buried so deeply inside of Jim with him squirming and moaning in his arms, it's all he can do not to come right then and there when Jim's voice hits that certain pitch that sends shivers down his spinebefore the memory floats away, Spock directing his thoughts more easily now. He brings forth only certain aspects of those memories, the word ashayam into the forefront. He was telling the truth that is had no direct translation in Standard – like most Vulcan words, the meaning and depth of his native language loses its preciseness and luster when converted.
But here like this in the meld, Jim will feel how the word tugs at Spock's heart, his very katra/soul/self responding to it. There's a depth behind it that even the link they shared the night before couldn't convey in the heat of the moment, more profound than anything he's felt to this point in his life. The cord responds to it, reaching out to Jim and connecting, the meaning of it shooting across like electricity along a wire. ]