[ A small amount of alarm flares up when Jim pulls at it—didn't he tell Jim to let him lead the mind meld and not go poking around?—when it pulls up the reason for his embarrassment. Jim will also be able to see that there's some complicated mix of shame and acceptance in it too, rooted at the base along with the word he was attempting to veil. Such an emotion is unbecoming of a Vulcan, of those who follow logic ... and yet, his own father confessed it to him at that time in the transporter room.
The memory comes up easily here too, pulled up from the depths of Spock's mind at Jim's unlooked-for insistence—"You asked me once why I married your mother," Jim's father, Sarek, explained to him. His expression was oddly open, the emotions raw in his voice and in his face in a way Jim had never seen before in his entire life. "I married her because I loved her."
And it's the very end of that memory, that word, that Spock was afraid to show/share/explain to Jim. Jim himself spoke of how he's never been in a relationship of this depth or meaning. They were already making a mess of this, or so it seemed to Spock at the time he spoke with Gregor ... what sort of meaning would Jim find in it, when it was aimed directly at him? ]
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The memory comes up easily here too, pulled up from the depths of Spock's mind at Jim's unlooked-for insistence—"You asked me once why I married your mother," Jim's father, Sarek, explained to him. His expression was oddly open, the emotions raw in his voice and in his face in a way Jim had never seen before in his entire life. "I married her because I loved her."
And it's the very end of that memory, that word, that Spock was afraid to show/share/explain to Jim. Jim himself spoke of how he's never been in a relationship of this depth or meaning. They were already making a mess of this, or so it seemed to Spock at the time he spoke with Gregor ... what sort of meaning would Jim find in it, when it was aimed directly at him? ]