[Woops, Jim hadn't thought of it as poking around at the time since it was right there...
The memory causes something to well up in his chest, nearly choking off his air--he could feel the operative word in the scene. It draws up a scene of his own unwillingly...
"I think I love you," she'd said underneath him, grinning and writhing.
He nearly chokes then too, only able to reply "That's so weird," like an idiot, suddenly wanting to crawl into himself, get away from the situation, from Gaila--
The word causes a reflex so deeply ingrained, one of loss, that he actively fights with himself not to pull away. He can't because...truly, wasn't that what he'd been expressing all along? Intimate trust, a bond he wouldn't share with anyone else, a sense of caring anyone else had yet to elicit from him? No matter which way Jim sliced it, that reciprocal feeling from before is love, however much he and Spock had yet to acknowledge it.
He remembers to breathe, the realization easing away the uncomfortable tightness in his chest. Had they really been botching it up as badly as it seemed to Spock? Jim knew he had a lot to learn but dammit, no one had convinced him to care quite as much as Spock has.]
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The memory causes something to well up in his chest, nearly choking off his air--he could feel the operative word in the scene. It draws up a scene of his own unwillingly...
"I think I love you," she'd said underneath him, grinning and writhing.
He nearly chokes then too, only able to reply "That's so weird," like an idiot, suddenly wanting to crawl into himself, get away from the situation, from Gaila--
The word causes a reflex so deeply ingrained, one of loss, that he actively fights with himself not to pull away. He can't because...truly, wasn't that what he'd been expressing all along? Intimate trust, a bond he wouldn't share with anyone else, a sense of caring anyone else had yet to elicit from him? No matter which way Jim sliced it, that reciprocal feeling from before is love, however much he and Spock had yet to acknowledge it.
He remembers to breathe, the realization easing away the uncomfortable tightness in his chest. Had they really been botching it up as badly as it seemed to Spock? Jim knew he had a lot to learn but dammit, no one had convinced him to care quite as much as Spock has.]